LOL, try avoiding alcohol on Christmas day when you are keeping the fact you are pregnant secret (just 3 more weeks until we can tell our families :) )

You know, as an anorexic I've always put a great deal of stress around Christmas. All the food and other people cooking for you and the unknown calories and the pressure to "Not ruin another Christmas." I have to admit that I have been nervous about it, as I keep saying, Recovery isn't simple, Ana tends to keep popping up to say hi.

I had a little blip on Christmas eve. I decided I didn't need  to eat yesterday as I would eat so much today. I hated it, really. I felt like I was letting myself down so much, and so I shared it with my family and they were great. We all ate soup for lunch and then steak and salad for dinner last night. As a price for this, they asked me to eat a mince pie with a teaspoon of cream on top. It was fine, and a good compromise to make. Low stress in a weak moment, but by no means giving in.

Remember that. It's ok to have a bad day. What's important is the ability to compromise, and push yourself as far as you are comfortable with.

My Mum has a postcard on the fridge door. It says. "Without challenge, there can be no achievement."

Take that as you will, I use it as a recovery mantra.

Merry Christmas. xxx